This past week has been completely crazy with so much going on that I have been fighting back tears on a daily basis which is what happens when I feel overwhelmed.
I feel as though I have been constantly chasing my tail all week trying to get caught up, and of course I haven't. The house is still a mess, and so is the yard, and I didn't get most of the things done that I had planned to do last weekend.
I ended up returning the Roundup, partly because I couldn't face the enormity of the task at hand, and partly because it just didn't feel right to use it. (The snarky comments I got about it, and chose not to publish didn't help, although honestly they were right on the mark). I have now resigned myself to digging sections of the bermuda grass up in stages as I dig out more beds, and xeriscape, very slowly. I heard from a woman in my permaculture group who said she dug out all her bermuda grass and it took seven years! I hope that it doesn't take me that long because I am hoping in seven years to be living in Oregon, but I also don't see the harm in slowing down a little, and not making myself, (and my family), so crazy.
I actually had a major aha moment a few days ago when I realized that I don't need to get EVERYTHING done, right NOW. I don't need to landscape our backyard, dig out more beds, paint the garden wall, build a chicken coop, maintain the veggie garden, and finish the front door, (although that is very nearly done), NOW! I mean there are of course things that I do need to keep up with on a daily basis, like caring for and feeding my family and pets, keeping things reasonably clean and tidy, working, and keeping up with the assignments for my statistics class. The other stuff, well it can wait, or be done very slowly. I know this sounds obvious, but for some reason I have been losing sight of this the past few months, and I have been making myself very stressed as a result. Silly really the things we do to ourselves.
On a side note, This story made me cry this morning for so many reasons that I don't really need to go into because they speak for themselves.
I missed this past weeks Independence days update because Monday was an especially crazy day, but I will do an update next week for two weeks instead. For now here are some pictures of food that has been coming out of the garden recently. We have been eating really well, lots of lovely veggies, and that is an achievement in itself right now I guess.