Tuesday, August 18, 2009

All Alone


Today is the first day that both girls are in school, and I am at home, all alone.

I have been wondering how I would feel on this day for a while, and I am actually feeling pretty lost and empty. I know that this is just the first step in the process of letting go of my little girls, and I don't feel ready, not yet anyway.

I am not sure what I need to do to make myself feel better. Perhaps I will go and plant the bean seeds that have been sitting on the kitchen counter for a week or more. Maybe that will help..............

10 comments:

Jenn said...

Oh, you have to be so PROUD! Look how happy they are to be off to school.

Don't be too sad, mama.

Mo said...

Thanks Jenn!

Amber said...

Ohhh this brings back memories! How exciting for your girls. When they are back home from school maybe you can cook them up something special- or better yet have them help you cook up something special. Kitchen time with kids is so fun!
It is really hard to let go, but the first day is the worst. Extra hugs and kisses will help them -and you! :)

Amy said...

I can so relate to your feelings! I have to be doing something VERY productive in order to keep that empty void inside my heart at bay.

I'm sure in a few weeks it will feel more natural and you will actually enjoy (*gasp!*) those few hours you have to yourself.

Find yourself a new hobby my friend! Or delve into your card business!

And if you ever need someone to talk to, you know where I am. : )

fullfreezer said...

Oh, I love those first day of school pictures! They will be so excited to tell you all about their school adventures! Enjoy that while it lasts- as they get older you'll be lucky to get anything out of them. Find something to occupy your time and you will adjust in a short while.
Then, enjoy your moments of peace and quiet.
Judy

bodaat said...

Our tap dancing class is always looking for new dancers! Hope your day went okay. Love you lots Mo.

Mo said...

Thank you my friends! Of course I have lots of stuff that I need to be doing that will keep me busy over the next few days/ weeks, but whether I will feel motivated to do it is another thing entirely. Your support helps though!

Mid-life Midwife, CPM said...

Bitter sweet, no? :) This will be the first year that we'll have both kids in school. I know I'll be a mess those first couple weeks- yet at the same time, I look forward to those lovely end-of-pregnancy naps that I'll get.
Where we live, they've passed a law that school cannot start until after Labor Day. So many families travel north for that weekend that it helps the state economy via massive tourism. I used to like the kids starting school in August though. It meant they'd get out earlier in summer!
Your little girls are lovely, btw. :)

Marilyn said...

Awww, they are SO cute! It always took me at least a week to adjust to the new schedule and the lack of noise. Pretty soon you'll have all sorts of projects going and it won't be so bad. Just think-the fall garden season is coming!!

Titania said...

It is usually harder for the Mum; the children are quite happy to meet a new challenge...they will have lots of news to tell you; that will be fun. Also getting involved with the school etc. will be good for you.
The girls look so proud and happy.