That is how I have been since the weekend I got sick. You remember, the weekend I had planned to get so much done? Well, it is still not done, not any of it. I am really lacking in something. I am not sure if it is motivation, or energy, or perhaps both, but it is driving me crazy.
I sometimes go through stages like this, though more so when I was younger and had less to do. The fact that I am surrounded by seemingly endless and repetitive tasks makes me feel overwhelmed and seems to feed the inertia I am feeling all the more.
I started alphabetizing my CD collection a couple of days ago. They are in a mess and I don't even know what I have any more. I didn't get very far with that either because I kept stopping to listen to various tunes and never getting restarted again. Now I have a huge stack of un- alphabetized Cd's on the office floor to add to my general feeling of chaos.
I think for now I just need to surrender to it all. I guess as long as we are all fed, clothed, and taken to school/ work that is all that really matters, for now at least.
One thing I have been doing often is playing my drums. At least I am motivated in that area of my life, but then that is all fun! Having a teacher who expects to see improvement helps of course. Perhaps that is what I need for the rest of my life at the moment too.