It is an inspiring thing to me that despite my severe lack of motivation and energy recently the veggies in my garden just kept on growing without any help from me.
It helped that we have had so much rain of late which supplemented my rather sporadic watering. This has also helped the weeds to grow, but that is fine. I rather like sitting in the soil and pulling weeds.
The past week I have been lucky enough to harvest several pounds of spinach and of course my much loved swiss chard, as well as carrots, beets, and parsley. My seedlings are thriving as well and are almost ready to plant out once I have prepared their new homes.
I am feeling a bit more like myself again and although still not quite back to where I was in terms of my energy levels I don't think it will be long now.
I had pretty much written February off as a dead loss in terms of getting things done but it appears that my vegetable garden had other plans! Nice.
That is how I have been since the weekend I got sick. You remember, the weekend I had planned to get so much done? Well, it is still not done, not any of it. I am really lacking in something. I am not sure if it is motivation, or energy, or perhaps both, but it is driving me crazy.
I sometimes go through stages like this, though more so when I was younger and had less to do. The fact that I am surrounded by seemingly endless and repetitive tasks makes me feel overwhelmed and seems to feed the inertia I am feeling all the more.
I started alphabetizing my CD collection a couple of days ago. They are in a mess and I don't even know what I have any more. I didn't get very far with that either because I kept stopping to listen to various tunes and never getting restarted again. Now I have a huge stack of un- alphabetized Cd's on the office floor to add to my general feeling of chaos.
I think for now I just need to surrender to it all. I guess as long as we are all fed, clothed, and taken to school/ work that is all that really matters, for now at least.
One thing I have been doing often is playing my drums. At least I am motivated in that area of my life, but then that is all fun! Having a teacher who expects to see improvement helps of course. Perhaps that is what I need for the rest of my life at the moment too.
The weekend wasn't a productive one at all despite my best efforts. All I really managed to do was pick some swiss chard, and spend much too long trying to get a pretty picture of it. Ah well, sometimes one just needs to be sick.
Here are the seeds that I planted last week. Not very promising to look at it has to be said.
I always spend a long time planning what I will sow, and then end up hastily throwing them into pots in a panicked attempt to get them sown in time. Not a very scientific or efficient way to grow seeds. I hope it works though!
This was my little garden last summer at it's peak.
Lets hope by some miracle I manage to achieve the same degree of success this year.